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what to say? by jenquai, literature

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what to say?

what to say? lost in the village of disbelief i find myself begging begging for dreams seeing the possibilities but only living to expectations forgetting the importance and damning myself once again wishing for some clarity in this fog of life hoping to see you on the other side the map i gave you isn't quite right i keep making you get lost and i've lost my sight follow my voice, you're oh so near just follow it, and disregard the fear you'll find it eventually i hope you do but the echoes, and that map may turn you loose...

one week by jenquai, literature

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one week

it's been a week a week of rest a week of thought a week of reflection it's been a whole year an entire year, since that dreadful dreary day a year of thought a year of reflection and yet i haven't a clue as to why that dark dagger in the night decided to pierce my soul that night perhaps i'll never know perhaps i shouldn't care maybe i shouldn't dwell and maybe i shouldn't dare but one day, i'll find out what created this scar, this void in my mind

a week from paradise by jenquai, literature

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a week from paradise

a week from paradise that's where we stand waiting and pacing for this week to pass waiting and pacing for that flight to life waiting for that paradise dreaming of that day waiting for that feeling dreaming on the way a week from paradise that's all that's left to go it's been so long it's hard to tell just how long it's been since that last day my last day in paradise waiting for that paradise dreaming of that day waiting for that feeling dreaming on the way waiting for that paradise dreaming of that day waiting for that feeling it's only a week away

screaming for you by jenquai, literature

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screaming for you

lost on the side of the road we roll, slide, and skid out of existence away from what we once knew as life we drift away, falling ever so slightly our sun is slowly setting i fear and i keep running westward, trying to slow the fall of what was, the greatest thing of my life all the while, instead of heading west i should have been traveling east back to you, and that place that i've always known hopefully one day i'll return to that place called home and to that place called you

the thoughts beyond by jenquai, literature

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the thoughts beyond

i'm looking into infinity forgotten on the edge of the world that's where i sit today looking back on my forlorn days, those days from long ago i feel helpless, lost, and overwhelmed i feel the need to travel away i feel misplaced, misused, and misappropriated i feel i should be somewhere else but where, everything else is to far away out of reach, out of touch, out of style i'm looking out over the lake forgotten on this old wooden dock that's where i sit today looking back on my past, those days that seem so far away i feel despair, distress, and depressed i feel the need to run away i feel thirsty, hungry, and weak i feel

im not your star by jenquai, literature

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im not your star

I'm not your star, that's what you'd always say on those late nights, where'd we always sit and play play these little games, the games where neither of us could win those little games that always leave you feeling out of breath i tell you my thoughts, you tell me yours and then we sit there, not caring to know anymore that's what those nights were like those long drawn out nights in the dark the nights where we'd feel alone, together, and distant all at once after the silence, i'd always say I'm looking to the sky, and i hope, dream, and pray that one night i'll look up and see you for you are my star, you always have been you'v

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to live? by jenquai, literature

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to live?

to live, to die is there no other way to live out lives? What if i don't want to see another day without seeing the end of me, is there no way out of this place? or am i condemed to suffer in this perpetual place a place where dreams are my only escape Looking in, never part of it but always wondering what it's like in there Life seems so distant am i dead? am i alive? am i stuck in some sort of state in the middle i carry on never knowing but always watching feeling dying slowly until the day comes that i feel love and begin to live

starlight by jenquai, literature

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starlight

looking up into the dark nights sky i see nothing but one star, a star floating up into the heavens, shining it's aura down into my soul it's my only source of light, as i try to make my way through the darkness, my only chance to make it out of the pain, and into a state of peace i reach up into the sky, forever hoping that my arms will be able to reach, and every time i reach, and fail, a piece of me falls, falls all the way back down, into that state of oblivion, that state that causes so much pain, not just for me, but for all if only, if only i could some way get that star to reach back down to me, surly it's strength would be e

im not your star by jenquai, literature

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im not your star

the thoughts beyond by jenquai, literature

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the thoughts beyond

screaming for you by jenquai, literature

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screaming for you

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Nighttime Ire by neo-gbuddha, literature

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Nighttime Ire

a century of pain, a century of night a slight of hand, a show of might sword's men scars, weak ones use lady luck's hapless in torrent abuse sleepless nights love dreamless days incubus sprits love incredulous ways… Violin roses play silk clad tunes Gothic morns and violet noons Velvet skies, lead lined treasures moonlit sands, and beige tine pleasures Tipping tulips and torrent wails misty kisses, and billowing sails symmetrical insanity in comfortable morn telegraphic soliloquy where death's blue shorn

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THE GIRL by imnotyourstar, literature

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THE GIRL

I'm one of a kind or so I've been told. Special, a pleasure to have known. I make you laugh and forget your problems, but what about mine. I tell jokes and goof around but what about the girl inside? The girl you don't know, one who is emotional, vulnerable, and ready to cry. You think you know me but thats a joke. You only know the show I put on for everyone of someone whose happy, confident, and secure. I wanna trust you I wanna let you know the girl whose emotional, vulnerable and ready to cry. I need your help to become the girl you think I am, happy, confident, and secure.

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what to say? by jenquai, literature

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what to say?

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About jenquai

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Artist // Literature

United States
Deviant for 20 years
www.livejournal.com/users/jenquaiex/
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Current Residence: Eau Claire, WI
Favourite genre of music: metal
Operating System: os x
Personal Quote: looking for you, and lost on the way, that's the way i'll most likely stay

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

death, chuck was great

Tools of the Trade

guitar, bass, keyboard, you know, the usual

Other Interests

music, writing, i don't know whatever

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jenquai

Mar 15, 2005

yo

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hey, what's up everyone, yeah i know, if you look above, i'm multitasking my media intake, music, reading, and a movie.  I know it's impressive, but no need to be amazed, it happens every once and a while.  but anyways. School has started again, :( i so need another week off, that'd be awesome, and i could also use some cash, so you know, if any of you out there feel not quite so poor as i do, you can just send some my way and i'll put it to good use paying heat and other such niceties such as that. doo bee doo bee doo... i don't want to work tonight, i hate quiznos, tasty food, but a pain in the ass to run.  I hate closing there 5 days a

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jenquai

Mar 6, 2005

hey, what's up everyone

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hey, sorry about being gone for so long, but i soon plan to become active in the community once again, and i'm finally working on stuff that i'm actually proud of.  So hopefully i'll get around to submitting that soon.  Sorry about my long absence, and hope to be talking to all my old friends on here once again very soon. thanks for waiting, jon

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jenquai

Nov 1, 2004

new journal

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hey everyone, just wanted to let you know, any journal entries that i'd have will be posted to my livejournal account http://www.livejournal.com/users/jenquaiex/ so anyone that is interested at all, go there, i won't be posting anything here.

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in-the-minority

Sep 25, 2004

Thanks for commenting my work, I really appreciate it.

dexter-crowley

May 20, 2004

thanks so much for the

and the comment... really appreciate it

devilscup2004

May 20, 2004

AWESOME SITE!
Cant wait to see what you post next!

daeira

May 2, 2004

Thanks for your comment on "My father's music"! Yep, there is something irky about that poem, and it will be taken care of with the help of wonderful deviants such as yourself.

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